I am one who actually ran away from all rituals from a very young age. It would be with great difficulty you would be able to make me do something against my will… The only allowance I would give Ma was to chant Mantras…

I realise now why… they made my play with words and sing which I loved to anyway.. so memorizing was easy peasy…

Everytime I sit for a ritual like marriage, death or even Grihapravesha… it is like well we got to do what we got to do.. it actually put me off since it had so much religious and social content… I know it has to.. sometimes, but it did not make sense if you were busy fighting which is the best or right rather then focussing on the ritual itself… I mean the whole purpose is lost..

But I guess, when perspective changes… our lives also changes…  As life kept happening to me, it was those very rituals.. like getting up in the morning and following a particular task like say Pranayama or yoga or anything just chanting Gayatri Mantra … or simply just sipping tea at leisure… watching the sunrise  before leaving for work… it presented a great way to ground oneself and to prepare oneself for the day. Even before starting work, spending some quiet moments with self always made me go about my day and face what was necessary…

Even writing is a ritual for me. I missed it so much due to the pre-disposed judgement of people you work with just because you wrote something about which you felt deeply.  The spontaneity was lost and my soul begged for outlets for words… and today I am glad I am slowly making it back to the ritual of wording something I feel deeply about.. and I hope to re connect with myself… through words here… this blog was always a special place to return back… away from all the musts and shoulds and slowly build my own structure of ritual.

shradhtarpanToday remembering Raj, our dear departed friend, we are doing a  shraddh ceremony and it feels good. I believe if we start something somewhere its fulfilling to complete it.  You can call it ritual, you can call it closure and you can call it a heartfelt action…

So …. I am feeling peaceful… just watching the pandit go through the various motions of his ritual… watching our friend Jaya immerse herself in that, gives me great joy… and I am sure even Raj who never believed in such actions can recognize it for what it is… a heartfelt prayer and loving thoughts for you… so that you can go ahead… with joy… we want you to keep going till you reach where you are supposed it… we will meet you there soon… buddy…

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