download And off we go…  13 has always been lucky for me…   And somehow the synchronous number song… was making me smile… how interesting the world is if we notice..

And as I look back towards us, it has been a rather interesting journey…

Rocky being the more steady I think the credit of the past  2 years go to him. I have been more chaotic and withdrawn in life to make any tangible contributions… 🙂

And I do sigh with relief and gratefulness that even when paths almost diverged, Rocky was solid as a rock and I think in marriage, it takes 2 to tango… and the lead dancer has to be strong in leading his partner in rhythm and for that I am grateful. I think the pure mettle of a relationship is proven when both can overcome the tough lemons of life… and well we are still walking the tightrope and its quite an adventurous journey…

So well, what more do I say ? Besides the obvious that its been a fulfilling companionship, partnership and yes looking forward to more…

I was thinking how I  would like to commemorate this year…

Maybe do a memory walk… of our finest moments… 🙂 …

Happy Anniversary…. Rocks and heres a haiku for you..

Rocky paths we get in life

The bubbling brook smooths it over

Making it a smooth sail – Our Journey

Casa-del-Arbol-swingA rare event which I crave for once a week. But given life’s engine driving in different directions, after changing gears, and by the time I arrive back to the normal gear, it is Monday and then the week goes off in a flash..

Today its been a while, and I think I will now consciously spend my Sundays giving time to my hobbies and things that I like the most.. Cooking, reading, baking, having crazy chats with hubby and writing… listening to music and de-cluttering, and ahhhhh… napping…

An experiment with a healthy breakfast, some lovely tea as I rift through the pages of a gripping book, experimenting with a new recipe, a full bellied lunch, some TV time together ( which is also rare nowadays), pet time together, evening coffee ( for a change), blogging my heart out ( which I miss the most), having a Budweiser with some chicken liver pepper fry made by Hubby, baking a brownie swinging to Nina Simone blues….  Papa and Hubby pottering around the house, around me, giving me this circle of comfort and shelter which the heart just soaks in and the soul gets nourished by it…

A feeling of general well being flows through my veins which enables me to smile to myself and be grateful for the moments given to me.. making me feel recharged…

I dont have anywhere to be, anywhere to go, anything to do… and nothing to think… just feel good… just feel good…. a cool breeze whispers through my heart… and I … E      X      H     A    L     E

And today I flow with the flow…. living in sync with the rhythm of my desire to just be…..

Ummmm and yes, very minimum time in Facebook.

I like that state of being…. and I hope I can recreate this every Sunday…. 🙂  Just to remind myself that there is something substantial waiting for me, if I just stop running around.. in circles…

And a  haiku comes to my mind…

Out comes a wish

and here I am – Still

while all is in motion around me…


And yes, I do plan to be off Facebook as much as I can.  🙂

I respected this giant of a personality and his humility and his passion for his dream and beliefs like many others..

Praying that his journey to the source is peaceful and full of joy… I am remembering him through his quotes.

Capture21) “Difficulties break some men but make others. No axe is sharp enough to cut the soul of a sinner who keeps on trying, one armed with the hope that he will rise even in the end.”

2) “It always seems impossible until it’s done.”

3) “If I had my time over I would do the same again. So would any man who dares call himself a man.”

4) “I like friends who have independent minds because they tend to make you see problems from all angles.”

5) “Real leaders must be ready to sacrifice all for the freedom of their people.”

6) “A fundamental concern for others in our individual and community lives would go a long way in making the world the better place we so passionately dreamt of.”

7) “Everyone can rise above their circumstances and achieve success if they are dedicated to and passionate about what they do.”

8) “Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world.”

9) “I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.”

10) “For to be free is not merely to cast off one’s chains, but to live in a way that respects and enhances the freedom of others.”

11) “Resentment is like drinking poison and then hoping it will kill your enemies.”

12) “Lead from the back — and let others believe they are in front.”

13) “Do not judge me by my successes, judge me by how many times I fell down and got back up again.”

14) “I hate race discrimination most intensely and in all its manifestations. I have fought it all during my life; I fight it now, and will do so until the end of my days.”

15) “A good head and a good heart are always a formidable combination.”


A Mandela Day today…  my soul rejoices remembering his life on earth..

Did you know ??

1. He wasn’t born Nelson Mandela but rather Rolihlahla Mandela in Mvezo, a village on the eastern cape of South Africa, in 1918.

2. As a young boy, he lived in Qunu, a village so small there were no roads, only footpaths, and families lived in huts.

3. He was baptized in the United Methodist Church and given the name Nelson by a teacher.

4. His father, a counselor to the tribal chief, died when he was 9. Mandela was then adopted by the tribal chief.

5. He fled to Johannesburg to avoid a marriage arranged by the tribal regent.

6. Sports were a part of his life even during his time as a political prisoner at Robben Island, where he helped to organize a limited sports program in the isolation section. He and other prisoners became fans of the prison soccer teams that played weekly matches in the general section of the prison.

7. Invictus, the 2009 film starring Morgan Freeman as Mandela, is the name of a William Ernest Henley poem that provided Mandela inspiration during his 27 years in prison.

8. Mandela was known to excel in boxing.

9. In 2005, Mandela announced his son, Makgatho Mandela, had died of AIDS.


And this is the poem he was inspired by during his imprisonment…  I take inspiration from the same


Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.


its very interesting how true the false premises that we live by that is sometimes, the trigger to all the drama around us..

Thank you Abraham for the points 🙂  Its Making me think….

51Tf1iCowpL._BO2,204,203,200_PIsitb-sticker-arrow-click,TopRight,35,-76_AA278_PIkin4,BottomRight,-65,22_AA300_SH20_OU01_False Premise #10 : I cannot have everything that I desire, so I have to give up some things that are important to me in order to get others

False Premise #9 : The path to my joy is through my action. When I am feeling bad, I can get to a better feeling place by taking action. I can focus upon a situation that I think is the reason I am feeling bad, and walk away from it. And once away from it I will feel better. I can get to what I want by leaving what I don’t want.

False Premise #8 : To be in harmony with another, we have to want and believe in the same things.

False Premise #7 :With enough effort, or hard work, I can accomplish anything.

False Premise #6 :Who I am began the day I was born into my physical body. As an unworthy being, i was born into a life of struggle in order to try to achieve greater worthiness

False Premise #5 :Because I am older than you,  I am wiser than you; and therefore should allow me to guide you

False Premise #4 : I have come here to live the right way of life and to influence others to the same right way of living. And what feels right to me must be the right way of living for all.

False Premise #3 : If I push hard enough against unwanted things, they will go away.

False Premise #2: My parents, because they were here long before I was born, and because they are my parents, know better than I do what is right or wrong for me.

False Premise #1 : I am either physical or non-physical, either dead or alive.

Read The Vortex for more…


This is a constant phase of evolutionary game that I have to play with myself. The search for peace within oneself…

Sometimes, when one has a set of experience, one sorts that out and one thinks that one has completed a cycle but well surprise surprise, it keeps coming back at you, testing your lessons learned.

I for one, was always not very comfortable with exams but it seems the past few years, tests and exams and lessons have become by best friend.. and yeah I chose to flow with the flow and learn by tasks well.

At the point of acute cornering, acute blame, acute accusations, acute misjudgements, acute rejection, out comes with all the lessons of compassion and tolerance towards all and thus flows the river of love and acceptance of self…

Oh but did I tell you about the anger… that happens before you get to the acceptance and the tolerance bit.

That is a very interesting phase… one which can actually jerk your very foundation and turn you into a very judgmental soul (saying this with lot of shame) … but its like one of the self tests… once you wade through it and find the light at the end of the red river of anger… and mistrust and frustration, you definitely know ( as you knew earlier and yet you forgot) that all of life in this physical body is just an experience and you need to get a grip on the reaction,….. maybe go into a slow motion bit… helped me to see the many helping hands that took me out of the narrow self loathing perspective… 🙂

So yes the tigress is still licking her wounds but will wear her battle scars with dignity, like a beautiful tatoo which will remind me of the lessons and going slow on the reaction… specially to judge…

I cannot control what others think of me, but I can choose to live the positive way… in control of  my reactions…

So yes, am walking the path to reacquaint myself with inner peace… and attract all that I choose to have in my physical life….

Still need to figure out my zero tolerance to injustice, misconduct and lies… and get a grip on that… ( god knows how) … I wait in patience  and silence to learn from within myself from my guides…