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This is a constant phase of evolutionary game that I have to play with myself. The search for peace within oneself…

Sometimes, when one has a set of experience, one sorts that out and one thinks that one has completed a cycle but well surprise surprise, it keeps coming back at you, testing your lessons learned.

I for one, was always not very comfortable with exams but it seems the past few years, tests and exams and lessons have become by best friend.. and yeah I chose to flow with the flow and learn by tasks well.

At the point of acute cornering, acute blame, acute accusations, acute misjudgements, acute rejection, out comes with all the lessons of compassion and tolerance towards all and thus flows the river of love and acceptance of self…

Oh but did I tell you about the anger… that happens before you get to the acceptance and the tolerance bit.

That is a very interesting phase… one which can actually jerk your very foundation and turn you into a very judgmental soul (saying this with lot of shame) … but its like one of the self tests… once you wade through it and find the light at the end of the red river of anger… and mistrust and frustration, you definitely know ( as you knew earlier and yet you forgot) that all of life in this physical body is just an experience and you need to get a grip on the reaction,….. maybe go into a slow motion bit… helped me to see the many helping hands that took me out of the narrow self loathing perspective… 🙂

So yes the tigress is still licking her wounds but will wear her battle scars with dignity, like a beautiful tatoo which will remind me of the lessons and going slow on the reaction… specially to judge…

I cannot control what others think of me, but I can choose to live the positive way… in control of  my reactions…

So yes, am walking the path to reacquaint myself with inner peace… and attract all that I choose to have in my physical life….

Still need to figure out my zero tolerance to injustice, misconduct and lies… and get a grip on that… ( god knows how) … I wait in patience  and silence to learn from within myself from my guides…